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July 20th, 2004
12:52 pm
Based on the lj interests lists of those who share my more unusual interests, the interests suggestion meme thinks I might be interested in
1. art score: 7
2. poetry score: 6
3. no doubt score: 5
4. writing score: 5
5. dreams score: 4
6. night score: 4
7. squaresoft score: 4
8. drawing score: 4
9. swords score: 4
10. playstation score: 4
11. ddr score: 4
12. sunshine score: 3
13. rpgs score: 3
14. j.r.r. tolkien score: 3
15. shopping score: 3
16. rurouni kenshin score: 3
17. sting score: 3
18. shoes score: 3
19. spirited away score: 3
20. pokemon score: 3
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June 17th, 2004
09:24 pm
Not much to really update. I PASSED MY CALC TEST! :D i got 61% on it. Better then the 40% i got last unit. hehehe. Schools over tomorrow! yay!!!! hehehehehehe. i still got 2 exams to do tho and then its all over.
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June 9th, 2004
10:07 pm
Well hello there.
Ok where to start. i guess i should start with grad eh.
Well ok... uhh.. so babis stayed the night friday, i couldnt sleep cause it was too hot with him on the bed and all, and he was a little loud, snoring in my ear and all.. lol (I really dont care if you snore babe) So i went pee and slept on the floor for the rest of the night, then i woke up at like 7 cause i couldnt sleep no more. Had a shower and went for my hair appointment. Had to wait like a half hour cause my lady was behind. My hair was very sexy. :D I was very sexy ;) Ok so ya, grandma and grandpa finally showed up after my hair appointment and all, well more like a few hours after it but ya. I put my dress on and damn i was hot. hehehe. -looks and admires her boobs- ok that was out of line.. hehe anyways, where was i? Oh right, so we got to the car parade and our car was just so cool!!! We had the leading car in the parade so it was great. It started to rain on us a bit and it was cold. And then the ceremoney took place and i went up and got my thingy and all. Yup yup..
So after that was the dance and man i say all that too much.. haha.. ok ya.. dance, that was fun, could of had better songs tho but it was still good. Babis got to see my dance all sexy ;)
Just wait till im 19 and i can go to clubs.. hehehe :D!! only 10 more months :| damn, thats too long!! *pouts* oh ya, grad. Ok, so Cruise, it was good except i was so tired and i didnt do anything, but i got some good pictures of babis, crystal and brandon doing stuff and it was really fun watching them do stuff. it was nice.
I slept the last 2 hours of the cruise tho, i remember babis trying to get me to get up a few times, i was just too tired tho.
After that we went back to my place, and lyed in bed and took out all the bobby pins in my hair, that was a joint effort, and it was nice :) We went to sleep at 6am, and dad tryed to wake us up at noon , finally got out of bed at quarter to 1, came down stairs and my grandpa was fixing our bathroom sink.. so we now have a new focet for the bathroom and the kitchen. It was nice of them.
Me and babis made something to eat and then went back to sleep at 3. We woke up at 6, i showered and then we went and saw Harry Potter. hehehe. i had fun teasing babis ;) i like to tease in public places.. im so bad. haha.
So grad was fun and im doing just fine, im happy. Schools almost over and i have the best boyfriend in the world, who i miss tons and tons!
We went and saw The day after tomorrow last night, omg that was such a fucking awsome movie!! The wolves were scary! ooo.. lol. so was that part with the ice, :| But ya..
Babis got a job at the place where his brother works, im so happy for him :) So far he likes it.. haha. we'll see about later when all the actual work comes :P!
Im not tired, but im bored, i think i will go watch some tv then.. pitch black is probably just ending, or maybe its over at 11.. ya.. its only 10:30 so its probably ending at 11. i'll go watch what my baby is watching, cause im weird and creepy in that way that i like to do that kinda stuff.. SCARY CREEPY ME!!! oooOOooOOOOOoooOOOoooOOOOOOO! Did i scare anyone? damn.. lol
Well, im gonna get going now. Ya'll have a nice life!
Good Night
~Bed Bug~
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June 1st, 2004
10:53 pm
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10:11 pm - GRAD 2004!!!!!!!!!!
WOOOT! Grads on saturday! HEHEHEHEHEHE!!!
Im gonna have so much fucking fun its gonna be awsome!!! muahahah shit, have to call my mom, BRB!
shes on the phone.. lol
but anyways. yes grad grad grad!!!
Hehehehehehehehehehehehhee...
so superstores probably going on strike, yippie! :|
Babis might be getting a real job :) He goes in to see the boss dude tomorrow. Im so happy for him :) I hope he gets the job, cause he'd be a lot happier then, and i want him to be happy.
Im glad im going with babis to grad :) Even tho he says hes not gonna dance much and im gonna dance the whole time XD, he can dance if he wants to or not, im gonna dance!! HEHEHEHE~!
I cant wait, hehehe. I want my babis now:( even tho i just saw him half hour ago. lol
Well, i think im gonna go make something to eat now. Eggs sound good.. hmm.. hashbrowns take too long.. but they sound good too.. mmm food at 10pm. heheh.
I'll write back later, but it might not be until after grad!!
GRAD 2004 ALL THE WAY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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May 27th, 2004
10:30 pm
Post a comment about my fight. (hey people, im showing you my bitchy side personally, at least you can do is post a comment about it)
This is my cousin by the way...
| Session Start: May 27, 2004 |
| Participants: |
| ... i look good on a bar-b-q!!! (8) (kohaku_Chan39@hotmail.com) |
| <---JaMiE---> I Miss Gordy... :'(
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[08:59:24 PM] <---JaMiE---: guess what?
[08:59:38 PM] (8) I am Cow: what?
[08:59:52 PM] <---JaMiE---: i live with krystal .... :d
[08:59:57 PM] (8) I am Cow: lol
[09:00:01 PM] (8) I am Cow: why?
[09:00:42 PM] <---JaMiE---: mothers a drunken bitch, and gramma/grampa
ahve given up :D
[09:00:48 PM] (8) I am Cow: fun
[09:00:58 PM] <---JaMiE---: yappers
[09:01:03 PM] <---JaMiE---: yepers(
[09:01:07 PM] <---JaMiE---: jbdf
[09:01:09 PM] (8) I am Cow: fvdlga
[09:01:22 PM] (8) I am Cow: how long you beenw ith crystal?
[09:01:25 PM] (8) I am Cow: krystal*
[09:01:33 PM] <---JaMiE---: ...awhile... almost a week
[09:01:34 PM] <---JaMiE---: brb
[09:01:36 PM] (8) I am Cow: k
[09:01:51 PM] (8) I am Cow: and u didnt tell me monday why?
[09:02:11 PM] <---JaMiE---: it was just decided yesterday that i am
LIVING here, i was visiting before.
[09:02:12 PM] <---JaMiE---: brb
[09:02:21 PM] (8) I am Cow: ahh ok
[09:02:51 PM] * <---JaMiE---> I Miss Gordy... :'( is now Offline
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| Session Start: May 27, 2004 |
| Participants: |
| ... i look good on a bar-b-q!!! (8) (kohaku_Chan39@hotmail.com) |
| <---JaMiE---> I Miss Gordy... :'(
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[09:52:04 PM] <---JaMiE---: tristen who?
[09:52:27 PM] (8) I am Cow: huh?
[09:52:27 PM] <---JaMiE---: on your profile
[09:52:32 PM] (8) I am Cow: you wouldnt know him
[09:52:40 PM] <---JaMiE---: ...wanna bet
[09:52:41 PM] <---JaMiE---: ?
[09:52:43 PM] <---JaMiE---: whats his last name?
[09:53:07 PM] (8) I am Cow: dunno, he lives somewhere weird
[09:53:23 PM] <---JaMiE---: so you dont even nkow his last name?
[09:53:42 PM] (8) I am Cow: it was just some random guy i added to msn
when ben broke up with me
[09:53:52 PM] <---JaMiE---: then i probibly know him
[09:53:53 PM] <---JaMiE---: from cadets
[09:54:01 PM] (8) I am Cow: hes not from cadets
[09:54:06 PM] (8) I am Cow: i found him by searching on profiles
[09:54:08 PM] (8) I am Cow: he doesnt know ben
[09:54:09 PM] <---JaMiE---: if it was from bens account...
[09:54:13 PM] (8) I am Cow: it wasnt
[09:54:16 PM] <---JaMiE---: ohh, ok? whatever?
[09:54:17 PM] (8) I am Cow: it was people i was randomly adding
[09:54:25 PM] <---JaMiE---: thats kinda sad.... but thats ok
[09:54:59 PM] (8) I am Cow: i dont talk to him anymore
[09:55:05 PM] (8) I am Cow: and i dont give a fuck if you think its
sad
[09:55:42 PM] <---JaMiE---: amber, do you truly think i care about
what you think about what i say/do?
[09:56:05 PM] (8) I am Cow: do you really think i give a fuck if you
think its sad? your fucking sad if you have to say stuff
like that
[09:56:59 PM] <---JaMiE---: amber, your a fucking retard, who has
never experenced life the way i do, this isnt getting to
me... you dont need to bring up the fact that you dont
care, cause i know, im not as fucking stupid as you all
think i am :s after all, i did find myself a place to
stay didnt i? im not a fucking retard :S
[09:57:43 PM] (8) I am Cow: i never said anything about your situation
jamie, dont make conclusions! I do care that your going
thru that, but if you have to be such a little bitch to
people then thats sad!
[09:58:45 PM] <---JaMiE---: fuck you amber , i have the right to be a
bitch to people, they've been bitchy to me for 13
fucking years :s ok? so fuck off, and do you really
think ben cares if im annoying or not? trying to turn
people away from me? fucking hady :S
[09:59:21 PM] (8) I am Cow: i wasnt trying to turn ben away from you,
you make too many fucking conclusions. your a fucking
retard, dont make fucking conclusions you little bitch
[10:00:01 PM] <---JaMiE---: amber, go suck a fucking dick, i dont give
a shit, your a stupid stuck up bitch, and i could care
less what your saying
[10:00:50 PM] (8) I am Cow: ok, i'll go suck a dick ;) and your the
only person i've been a bitch to latly, so dont go off
saying im a bitch. its because your family and your a
little 13 year old who doesnt know anything and doesnt
know me
[10:04:39 PM] <---JaMiE---: ok amber, i dont know anything, your a
fucking retard :S i know a hell of alot more then you do
and i've experenced things you will never experence in
your entire life :S and i could care less if i dont know
you, or what you think of me, i've learnt that why the
fuck should i care? you retard.... and yes, you are a
bitch... atleast to people who dont deserve it, so go
fucking run off with your retarded "boyfriend" hes
probibly blind anyways :S and never fucking come back
:S
[10:07:02 PM] (8) I am Cow: just becuase your moms a drunk bitch
doesnt mean you know everything jamie. sure you have a
rough life. doesnt mean you have to take out your anger
on other people. im glad i havent experiance what you
have, its made me a better person and im glad im not as
bitchy as you. And im only a bitch to peopel who are a
bitch to me, and if you fucking call my boyfriend
retarted again im gonna bitch slap you the next time i
see you. have some fucking respect, maybe if you did i
would have some respect for you
[10:07:50 PM] <---JaMiE---: your "boyfriend" is a retard
[10:08:24 PM] (8) I am Cow: how the fuck can you be so immature? you
dont even know the guy.
[10:08:58 PM] <---JaMiE---: point being? ohh yea, just beyond your
grasp :S
[10:09:09 PM] (8) I am Cow: wtf?
[10:09:22 PM] <---JaMiE---: i know yoru a retard who deserves death
:S
[10:09:57 PM] (8) I am Cow: ha, at least im happy with life
[10:09:58 PM] <---JaMiE---: i hate you amber, you and your
lesbian-ness, so know what? i probibly will never see
you again, im doing pretty good here.... so, have fun
you dirty skank
[10:10:08 PM] <---JaMiE---: and your fat...
[10:10:09 PM] <---JaMiE---: and ugly
[10:10:12 PM] <---JaMiE---: and a lesbian
[10:10:21 PM] (8) I am Cow: if im a lesbian how come i have a
boyfriend?
[10:10:43 PM] <---JaMiE---: cause yoru stupid, and dont know how to be
a proper lesbian
[10:10:53 PM] (8) I am Cow: and i dont care if you think im "fat" and
"ugly" cause theres people who think the opposite and i
dont care what you think
[10:11:01 PM] (8) I am Cow: lol maybe im not a lesbian then eh?
[10:11:24 PM] <---JaMiE---: you do know everyone here is laughing at
your stupididy right?
[10:12:05 PM] (8) I am Cow: do you really think i care? if you think
this is stupid then you all need to grow up
[10:12:18 PM] <---JaMiE---: shut up lesbian wannabe :S
[10:12:44 PM] (8) I am Cow: shut up you little boy
[10:12:56 PM] (8) I am Cow: you know how many poeple ive had to tell
you were a girl??
[10:13:30 PM] <---JaMiE---: you know i dont care? cause i'll never see
them again, the only people i care about is my
friends... cause there not so stupid that... there names
are "amber the lesbian wannabe"
[10:14:06 PM] (8) I am Cow: you really need to grow up
[10:14:15 PM] (8) I am Cow: no wonder grandma and grandpa have given
up on you
[10:14:41 PM] <---JaMiE---: fuck you, i should fuck your face up more
then it already is
[10:15:00 PM] (8) I am Cow: hahaha!!
[10:15:53 PM] <---JaMiE---: what amber? do you think i couldnt do it?
[10:16:32 PM] (8) I am Cow: lol
[10:17:32 PM] <---JaMiE---: no, wait, you'd probibly sit on me. and
i'd scream with the last breath in my lungs "ohh shit
dude, shes FATTER then i thought!!!"
[10:18:01 PM] (8) I am Cow: jamie, you probably weigh more then i do
[10:18:27 PM] <---JaMiE---: yea, fuck that
[10:18:36 PM] (8) I am Cow: not really
[10:18:40 PM] (8) I am Cow: im not fat
[10:18:53 PM] <---JaMiE---: and i am?
[10:19:07 PM] (8) I am Cow: your taller then me
[10:19:14 PM] (8) I am Cow: means you have more to you
[10:20:43 PM] * <---JaMiE---> I Miss Gordy... :'( is now Offline
[10:20:55 PM] * <---JaMiE---> I Miss Gordy... :'( is now Online
[10:22:14 PM] <---JaMiE---: actually, i dont care, you dont care, so
why are we wasteing our time fighting about it?
[10:23:04 PM] (8) I am Cow: its funny how you keep saying you dont
care, but you keep going on about it
[10:23:29 PM] <---JaMiE---: ok amber, im trying to stop this, and your
still fighting
[10:23:49 PM] (8) I am Cow: im not fighting, i was making a point
[10:24:20 PM] <---JaMiE---: w.e
[10:24:33 PM] (8) I am Cow: ok
[10:25:04 PM] * <---JaMiE---> I Miss Gordy... :'( is now Offline
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09:48 pm - A Change!!
Well, i thought it was time i changed the layout of my Journal.
Im not sure if im happy with the colour tho. Hmmm... Maybe i'll go and play around with that more.
I REALLY LIKE MY MOOD ICON!! Cute kitty! Neko Neko-chan!! :D:D
Anyways.. I miss babis :(!!!!!!!!
I want it to be after school tomorrow already. *sniff*
Anyways. Im gonna go play around with the colours (its a red right now, dont know if im keeping it.)
GOOD NIGHT!
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May 26th, 2004
11:21 am
Hello. Im at school. fun fun.
Im so tired.
"If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal."
:)
I would phone him but im at school and i cant make a long distance call anywhere in this school except the pay phone for 2 bucks. I would have went to his place :( Since i didnt get to see him last night and i miss him lots (L)
-yawn- i wish i could have slept more. lol
So i did my calculus test, i dont know how i did.. but i'll see when i get it back tomorrow. i tryed to do almost every single question. I only left like 2 blank so its all good... i think... I wish i could go on msn on these stupid computers! grrr... stupid high schools... lol.
10 more minutes till lunch. -talking about alcohol with a friend next to me- well, gonna get going. BAI BA!!
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May 25th, 2004
05:28 pm
| Introverted (I) 52.63% Extroverted (E) 47.37%
Imaginative (N) 54.55% Realistic (S) 45.45%
Emotional (F) 56.1% Intellectual (T) 43.9%
Easygoing (P) 50% Organized (J) 50%
| | [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<td [...] left">') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] <div align="center"><!--52.63 54.55 56.1 50--> <table style="color: black; background: #eeeeee" border="0" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0"> <tr> <td> <div align="center"> <table style="color: black; background: #dddddd" border="0" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0"> <tr> <td> <div align="center"> Introverted (I) 52.63% Extroverted (E) 47.37%<br> Imaginative (N) 54.55% Realistic (S) 45.45%<br> Emotional (F) 56.1% Intellectual (T) 43.9%<br> Easygoing (P) 50% Organized (J) 50%<br> </div> </td> </tr> </table> <table style="color: black; background: #eeeeee" border="0" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0"> <tr> <td> <div align="center"> Your type is: <b><font size="+3">INFJ</font></b><br> </div> </td> </tr> </table> <table style="color: black; background: #dddddd" border="0" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0" width="100%"> <tr> <td width="280quot;>> <div align="left"> You are a Guide, possible professions include - career counselor, psychologist, educational consultant, special education teacher, librarian, artist, playwright, novelist/poet, editor/art director, information-graphics, designer, HRM manager, merchandise planner, environmental lawyer, marketer, job analyst, mental health counselor, dietitian/nutritionist, research, educational consultant, architects, interpreter/translator. </div> </td> </tr> </table> </div> </td> </tr> </table> <a href="http://similarminds.com/career.html">Take Free Career Inventory Personality Test</a><br><font size="1"><a href="http://similarminds.com">personality tests by similarminds.com</a></font></div> <div align="center"> <table style="color: black; background: #D7DCCA" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="2" width="270"> <tr> <td style="color: black; background: #eeeeee"> <div align="center"> Global Personality Test Results</div> </td> </tr> <tr> <td><b>Sensate</b> (83%) high which suggests you are very empathetic, sensitive, and considerate of others.<br> <b>Intellectual</b> (60%) moderately high which suggests you tend to be internally motivated, self seeking, and independent.<br> <b>Assertive</b> (60%) moderately high which suggests you are proactive, direct, competitive, and intense.<br> </td> </tr> </table> <a href="http://similarminds.com/global.html">Take Free Global Personality Test</a><br><font size="1"><a href="http://similarminds.com">personality tests by similarminds.com</a></font></div> <div align="center"> <table style="color: black; background: #AECBD1" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="2" width="270"> <tr> <td style="color: black; background: #eeeeee"> <div align="center">Big Five Word Test Results</div> </td> </tr> <tr> <td><b>Extroversion</b> (38%) moderately low which suggests you are quiet, unassertive, and aloof.<br> <b>Friendliness</b> (74%) high which suggests you are very good natured, trusting, and helpful but possibly too agreeable<br> <b>Orderliness</b> (54%) medium which suggests you are moderately organized, reliable, neat, and ambitious.<br> <b>Emotional Stability</b> (22%) low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and nervous.<br> <b>Openmindedness</b> (54%) medium which suggests you are moderately intellectual, curious, and imaginative.<br> </td> </tr> </table> <a href="http://similarminds.com/big5.html">Take Free Big Five Word Personality Test</a><br><font size="1"><a href="http://similarminds.com/big5word.html">personality tests by similarminds.com</a></font></div> <img src="http://images.quizilla.com/M/MissAnthropy/1077072707_ystalheart.jpg" border="0" alt="crystal heart"><br>Heart of Crystal <br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/MissAnthropy/quizzes/What%20is%20Your%20Heart%20REALLY%20Made%20of%3F/"> <font size="-1">What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font> ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/scared.gif) anxious Current Music: Lost in Space on DVD |
May 21st, 2004
10:38 pm
Enneagram Test Results | Type 1 | Perfectionism | |||||||||||||||| | 63% | | Type 2 | Helpfulness | |||||||||||||||||||| | 90% | | Type 3 | Image Awareness | |||||||||||||| | 56% | | Type 4 | Sensitivity | |||||||||||||||| | 66% | | Type 5 | Detachment | |||||||||| | 40% | | Type 6 | Anxiety | |||||||||||||||||||| | 86% | | Type 7 | Adventurousness | |||||||||||||| | 60% | | Type 8 | Aggressiveness | |||||||||||||||| | 70% | | Type 9 | Calmness | |||||||||||| | 50% | Your Conscious-Surface type is 2w1 Your Unconscious-Overall type is Omni | Take Free Enneagram Personality Testpersonality tests by similarminds.com
I cant believe how true my unconsious personality is... My counsious is just as true which is kinda cool.. cause their both so true XD!
i dont think my Enneagram Test Results are that accurate but still pretty good.. the sensitivity should be a bit higher :| :P
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Current Mood: Missing Babis
Current Music: My Band - D12
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May 19th, 2004
09:37 pm
lalala.. im wearing a t-shirt and thats about it ;)
Went to a Aboriginal Graduation ceremoney thing to be recognized for being native and graduating.. it was interesting. I got to wear a fancy dress and be all sexy. lol.
Omg, my ssiter is weird. She bought 3 new pairs of underwear today and shes putting them all on over her shorts. thats so funny. Omg, going to take a picture. That was good.
So i had my grad BBQ the other day, i had so much fun :)
Sang like 4 songs at karyoke and the pie eating contest/fight was great :) ahh it was a good time, and i wouldnt have had that much fun if babis wasnt with me. Thanks for coming babe (L) Im gonna phone you soon if you dont call... :P lalalala.
I dont get to see babis till saturday -whines-
he called... yay :)
Yay, i get to see him tomorrow. Me so happy. lalala..
My pictures in the paper :) Grad Picture. haha.
*sigh* im all sad now. Babis has this friend who he always talks to, and i really dont trust them :| I just cant :( Im too much of a jealous bitch.. Like i know babis keeps saying i have nothing to worry about its just hard when they've done stuff and all that and she calls him like all the bloody time. Grr, and shes phoning like right now again. When a guy and a girl are that close that they talk all the time and she goes to him for help and all that.. its relaly kinda hard to trust that kinda realationship cause its just so close and all that.. like.. why cant i have that? :(
I almost think he doesnt want to.. but thats just crazy me.. Like who would like me anyways.. im too fucked up and jealous.. god i hate myself :(
Ben, i owe you a big appology for everything i put you through when i was going out with you, and babis, i appologize to you before hand to everything that im gonna put you thru cause im so fucked up and i dislike myself :(
I get to like peopel too much and i act realyl weird.. i do things the mean way when i like someone instead of doing the nice way.. i wish i could change it but its just me.. so, sorry.
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May 16th, 2004
10:44 pm
Ok, so theres this thing on playboy on tv.. and im like :@ and i started talking to people...
[10:26:45 PM] Engel Lynx -: Why do men sicken you.
[10:27:58 PM] Men sicken m: theres this thing on tv about playboy..and porn sickens me and it sickens me how men are revolved around sex and i really relaly hate porn. it
makes me feel ugly.
[10:28:26 PM] Engel Lynx -: Pfft. I'm not a huge fan of porn. I mean,oooooh.
[10:28:51 PM] Engel Lynx -: I only masturbate, like, because its health reasons. If men masturbate 20+ times a month,
they reduce the chance of prostate cancer vastly.
[10:29:17 PM] Men sicken m: i dont care if guys masterbate, like i hope they all do. but to porn its just sick.
[10:29:43 PM] Engel Lynx -: Agreed.
[10:30:07 PM] Men sicken m: it makes me really mad if im going out
with someone and they watch it for sexual reasons, its
liek what im not good enough for you?
[10:30:23 PM] Engel Lynx -: Oh yeah, agreed.
[10:30:51 PM] Engel Lynx -: Agreed indeed.
[10:31:19 PM] Men sicken m: it just makes me want to :@ i really hate
porn
[10:31:36 PM] Engel Lynx -: *hugs* Its ok.
[10:32:03 PM] Men sicken m: *hug* everyone would feel a whole lot
better if we all just had sex without recording it!
[10:32:31 PM] Engel Lynx -: Mind if we have sex and not record it?
[10:32:32 PM] Engel Lynx -: ;) :P
[10:32:49 PM] Men sicken m: lol haha.. im taken :P
[10:33:04 PM] Engel Lynx -: Hasn't prevented people in the past.
Hoo-yah!
[10:33:05 PM] Engel Lynx -: :P
[10:33:27 PM] Men sicken m: Im 100% faithful to whomever im with, why
else would i be so pissed about someone watching porn
when im with them??
[10:33:50 PM] Engel Lynx -: Good point.
[10:34:20 PM] Engel Lynx -: I'm 100% loyal, and we determine ahead.
Ok, how open are we gonna be about this... like... what
I agree with people about is that if you want to have
sex with someone else, ask my permission first.
[10:34:39 PM] Engel Lynx -: But you break that trust more than once...
or even once if its serious enough... goodbye right
there.
[10:35:29 PM] Men sicken m: would you sleep with someone else when
your going out with someone? i sure the hell woudlnt.
whats the point of being with that person then if your
just gonna go screw someone else?
[10:36:31 PM] Engel Lynx -: Something to keep the spark alive.
[10:37:19 PM] Men sicken m: umm.. how the fuck does that keep the
spark alive? im very sorry but i dont see how sleping
with someone else keeps the 'spark' alive. The spark
more like GOES OUT
[10:37:53 PM] Engel Lynx -: Nevermind. Different points of view.
[10:38:15 PM] Engel Lynx -: I can keep loyal relations and stuff.
Believe me, I am loyal to anyone if they want me to be.
[10:38:39 PM] Men sicken m: how is it being loyal sleeping with
someone else then?
[10:38:57 PM] Engel Lynx -: I have permission from my mate.
[10:39:24 PM] Men sicken m: i wouldnt give permission.. hell if they
asked i'd break it up right there and then.
[10:39:39 PM] Engel Lynx -: *shrugs* See, different points of view.
[10:39:58 PM] Men sicken m: well yours is more like the male point of
view.
[10:40:33 PM] Engel Lynx -: And the females I've been with.
[10:41:08 PM] Engel Lynx -: All the relationships I've been in with, I
have remained loyal and haven't even slept with anyone
else. The woman has been the one that broke the whole
loyalty thingy.
[10:41:45 PM] Men sicken m: I would never. and even if i wanted to, i
wouldnt do it while i was with them, id tell them i meet
soemone else and then go off and do it.
[10:41:56 PM] Engel Lynx -: Fair enough.
[10:42:18 PM] Men sicken m: Yea
[10:25:42 PM] That's Miste: why do men sicken you Amber?
[10:25:53 PM] Men sicken m: because they're all pigs.
[10:26:05 PM] That's Miste: um.. thanks?
[10:26:05 PM] Men sicken m: theres a thing on tv about playboy.
[10:26:12 PM] That's Miste: the 50 year thing
[10:26:14 PM] That's Miste: I mean
[10:26:15 PM] That's Miste: *cough*
[10:26:16 PM] That's Miste: what?
[10:26:20 PM] Men sicken m: its porn that sickens me
[10:26:30 PM] That's Miste: Porn sickens you?
[10:26:36 PM] Men sicken m: yes. i hate it with a passion.
[10:26:52 PM] That's Miste: If naked people sicken you...
[10:26:54 PM] That's Miste: :S
[10:27:21 PM] That's Miste: well, I won't judge you for hating porn
[10:27:23 PM] Men sicken m: no its the way that people are protrayed
in porn!
[10:27:31 PM] That's Miste: Umm... It's porn
[10:27:33 PM] That's Miste: it's not real
[10:27:34 PM] That's Miste: we know that
[10:27:41 PM] That's Miste: Look at how they portray bad guys in
movies
[10:27:49 PM] That's Miste: everything is emphasised to prove a point
[10:27:52 PM] That's Miste: or to serve a purpose
[10:28:02 PM] That's Miste: Porn is meant to sexually
stimulate/arrouse
[10:28:08 PM] Men sicken m: porn is so real.
[10:28:15 PM] That's Miste: 8-)
[10:28:15 PM] Men sicken m: thats what fucking sickens me
[10:28:31 PM] That's Miste: If you think Porn is real.. then no wonder
you're sickened
[10:28:45 PM] Men sicken m: how can sex be fake?!?
[10:28:50 PM] Men sicken m: like fuck
[10:29:25 PM] That's Miste: It's not like there's a science to it..
there may be technique, but no science.
insert this here. Rub vigorously. Grunt. Repeat
[10:30:07 PM] That's Miste: What exactly do you mean by "the way
people are portrayed" in porn?
[10:30:28 PM] Men sicken m: nevermind, talking to you about it is
pissing me off even more. lets just say i really hate
porn and i hate this world.
[10:30:37 PM] That's Miste: alright
[10:30:49 PM] That's Miste: things not going too well?
[10:31:03 PM] Men sicken m: things are fine. this subject just pisses
me the right fuck off.
[10:31:21 PM] That's Miste: ...
[10:31:34 PM] * That's Mister Retard to you is now Offline
So ya.. that be me. It just really pisses me off.. i wish porn never existed :( I wanna cry.. im gonna go and phone babis :(
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May 13th, 2004
09:45 pm - POST A COMMENT!
Writing again for no apparent reason.. just seems really nice to write in here latly. (i wonder how many people read this)
!!~~~I got an idea, if you read this write a comment, even if your not a member write as a guest! i wanna know whos actually reading my journal.. lol
So ya.. today wasnt the best day. I was really tired and just wasnt in a very good mood. Im still not in a good mood. *sigh*
I guess i've just been down latly :( I cryed the other night cause i was thinking so much ><
You know what i noticed that night tho.. its kinda cliche actually.
Well you know how your happy when your with someone and you smile and laugh and have all those good lovey dovey feelings and you never wanna cry.. well i seem to cry more now that im with someone :| and i dont know why.. maybe im happy im crying?? no thats not it.. i think im just completly confused about things. i almost wanna cry.. i shouldnt be like this.. like i have no reason but -cry-
I dont understand myself.. god i really do hate myself >.<
I love myself only because someone loves me.. im one of those people that live off other peoples feelings.. i hate that part about me.. but i just cant help it, its the way i am and its so hard to break. Im always like its my life and i'll do what i want with it and all that but theres still that whole living off how others think of me.
OMG im so fucked up.. i dont know waht the fuck im saying :|
Mrs Jackson really was right.. my emotions change so frequently its not even funny. Maybe i just feel better cause i was trying to talk about it.. maybe i'll put this as a Private entry.. nah, i like poeple to know me :P (see i already feel better:|)
Anyways! i need to work on my jealousy (haha, thats funny.. its never gonna change)
I just people too much and get all jealous.. and it doesnt help when the guy you like has all this friends that just happen to be ALL girls :| Maybe thats good for me.. but i just need a lot more reasuring :| haha.. now i hate myself again.. hah...ha...
Man im really fucked up. - -;
Im happy.. but not? maybe i need to get some more sleep.. and bed sounds good right now. I get to see babis tomorrow XD im gonna have those nice butterfly feeling in my tummy all day till i see him. I love that feeling.. i get it whenever i see him or know im gonna see him hehehehe.. i could sure go for a hug right now.. but i'll have to wait till tomorrow after school :( damn!!
Oh, one more thing ih ave to say. We voted on our Validictorians(god i think i spelt that horribly wrong :|) today. So Amanda Collville and Lars Newfeild. I wanted a heart warming kinda speach, but i guess everyone wanted a funny kind, cause thats what were gonna get with those 2. Should be good :) I think Lars is gay.. its a mistery to us! I wanna know.. lol.
Anyways.
I miss you babis (im sending you this link so you can read this cause you said you were going to school so ya, just thought id say that :$)
~Hugs & Kisses~
Amby
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May 11th, 2004
09:56 pm
Hewwooooo...
I dont know why im writing, just feel like it.
I guess i dont really have anything much to write anyways.. shows how bored i am. lol. Work was so boring today. Babis worked during the day so i didnt work with him tonight :( damn.
At like 8:40 this couple wanted a 599 patio set, and i tell ya their fucking huge! so by the time they were all done their shopping it was fucking 9 o'clock already and i didnt get off till 10 after 9 i was like ¬_¬ and -_-; and ><
Im glad Vicky sweapt my isles for me. that was so nice of her XD
I am now not that much scared of Greg(store manager) anymore, he s nicer then i thought :| maybe thats because he has a kid now. lol. Maybe i should have a kid so i'll be nicer ;) haha NO WAY!! :|
Now i miss babis *tear* :P
hehehe i teased him monday.. hehehe.. maybe i was just teasing myself :( -rollyeyes-
oooooooooooo~!! So the other day we had our Mothers day supper here and we were talking about my dress for a long while. and i really like the design :) I have pictures on the computer of them but i dont think their all final yet, woman and being picky about this, but it has to be picky cause its something special. hehe i cant wait till grad XD and i have a date -GRINS-
Im gonna have so much fun and nothings gonna stop me!!!!!
haha, i sang so loud in the car on the way home from work today. Tal Backman - Shes so High was on and i sang to that. lol. Im in a music mood right now.. maybe i'll listen to music to fall asleep.. ya... ya.... YAAAA!!!!
I cant go to bed now.. :|
I miss...
babis
Babar
Babi
Bizzle
Haralambos
haha i dont think i have that many nicknames :|
IM PERFECT!
I told mysefl i woudlnt diss myself anymore so i'll be happier, so im gonna say all this great stuff about me so i stop hurting my own feelings.
Amber, you are beatiful and caring and you can do anything that you put your mind to. Have faith in yourself!
*sigh* gonna go to bed then..
(L) yas!
~Hugs & Kisses~
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May 9th, 2004
07:23 pm
I swear to god, im not an alcoholic!! XD
There was no school friday so babis picked me up thursday and we went to cambell river. He took his friends to her parents place and we hung around and had fun :) We went back to his place and went to bed.. i felt bad cause he couldnt sleep and went to the floor and i slept on the bed. It should have been the other way around. :( and he sounded really sick and i was afraid he was gonna croke in the middle of the night :| Hes getting better but hes still pretty sick. I only had a sore throat for 2 days.
So we went to the college so babis could do some resume stuff, he really wants this job and i hope he gets it XD! So we went all the way back to Cambell River again. lol. It was nice. We went to Funtasia and played some games. babis got a hair cut and mmmm he looks good. We went to Moxies for supper and that was really nice too :) We went and watched Van Helsing and that was such a good movie too!! hehehe. So that was those 2 days of being with him.
So haha.. yesterday..
Me, Brandon, Crystal and Babis went camping at comox lake for the night. And i drank way too much. :| It was lots of fun tho. But yes, i drank too much. I drank so much that i started crying uncontrollable and couldnt stop. Crystal was saying she loved me and that i was beautiful and im so unhappy with myself that i started crying cause i dont think i am. So i cryed for like an hour and a bit and babis was there for me the whole time.. and no ones ever been there for me like that before. I really liked it.. he likes me :)
I dont know why im so unhappy with myself. Im a great person, even tho i have my bad sides to me..
"No drinking and Driving" - mommy. lol... Parents.. :P I love you too mommy.
Anyways.. cant really say anymore. I'll write more later.
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May 7th, 2004
12:11 pm
Why hello there. Guess where i am?? haha. im at North Island College with babis. hes doing stuff and im just passing the time. Anyways, dont really feel like writing much :P Just wanted to say that cause its just so cool. heheh
i need a life. wait.. i have one.
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May 4th, 2004
06:31 pm
hehe, i said i would write back.
So ya.. Friday.. omg i had so much fun friday. hahahaha...
So i had 2 smirnoff ice and 1 vex, and i was pissed. before we started drinking we were playing with a big ass ball and throwing a frisbie around, it was fun. then we lyed down and started drinking at the park. babis spilt his vex on the blanket. so meghan sipped it up. it was so funny. Crystal starts making out with brandon and im like :| "can i join??" so me and babis start and gross my sister out. haha. it was funny. me and crystal had a drinking contest to see who can gulp the most, and i so won. after that i was pissed. we went down the the baseball diamond and sat in the dug out, and we all took a piss around the dug out. it was funny.
So ya. everyone was bugging me and babis about if we were going out or not, so i just said we were officially going out, babis said no but then said yes right after.. and crystal only heard the yes so she was confused about that. but because i was drunk babis was confused about it too. but i worked that out, i do believe :P omg it was just so fun.. haha. lets just put it at that. (there was no sexual activity if any of you are wondering!!well, at least not for me,im sure crystal and brandon had some fun ;))
So ya. saturday babis phones me up and we go to see Godsend, which wasnt a bad movie. Then i stayed the night at his house >< in his bed ^_^! lol. he snores.. and it was hard to sleep. lol. but i liked it. i had fun.. well when do i not have fun with him? lol.
So there was suppost to be no school monday, so i made plans to go see babis of course. but then there was school, i said fuck it and went with babis XD! We watched Big Fish, and omg is that a fucking awsome movie!! i love it! XD XD XD! i cryed.. lol. when do i not cry on sad movies?
Then i worked that night and so did babis. so we went to work, i worked.. yup yup
Now its tuesday. and i missed calculus to take my Road test, so i got my N, and now i can drive. and ya. ya... woot!!! lol. so ya..
anyways. gonna go. write back later.
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April 29th, 2004
10:15 pm
Hello again :P
So, lets see. I saw 13 going on 30 with crystal and babis last weekend. Crystal went out with kevin for a day, then started going back out with branodn again. that was short lived :P lol. but hey whatever floats her boat. Ok, so then i worked saturday and babis picked me up after and we went to cambell river XD!
OMG, his dad has such a nice house!!! :O
nice floor too ;) haha..
So we went to his friends house and watched old school, had a paralizer which was relayl good! mmm.. i was a little buzzed but thats about it. I had a realyl good time with babis that weekend :)
lol So i worked with him monday, that was lots of fun. Then tuesday he came over and we watched tv and chilled on the couch :P
Worked with him wednesday again and he scared me cause i didnt see him and he pinched my ass and i thought it was some creepy person :| lol.
So todays thursday.. havent talked to him at all :P haha..
But omg, i cant wait for tomorrow XD
Me, Crystal, Brandon, And babis are gonna go to crystals house, me and crystal are going ot make dinner. and im so gonna get piss drunk :D Its gonna be so ufn, cause its just the 4 of us and were on comfterble around eachother so it will be really fun. realyl realyl realyl (omg, i managed to fuck all 3 reallys up all times.) excited. I want a hug :( Tomorrow... tomorrow...
hehehe -giggles like a little school girl-
lol.. im pathetic. haha..
anyways! write back later!!!
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April 23rd, 2004
05:11 pm
Im writing again! and its within a 2 day period, isnt that crazy! *scratches self*
Ahem.. anyways...
So, im not sad no more XD! GO ME!
I let babis read my livejouranl :S i still cant believe i did that but hey, i just hope he didnt take anything the wrong way or anything, and now he knows i've liked him for a while (more like ever since November.. haha..)
So ya. we talked after that, i felt better and ya.. im good :D!
Well, on another note, i Go for my N test on May 4th.. i hope i dont cry this time :| I cryed cause i fucked up my parrallel parking on my last time, and went on the side walk and he said i did dangerous actions and all that... so ya.. -crosses fingers-
I GOT MY GRAD PHOTOS! Finally!!!!! So i have those to give to people. :D
So, i met bens girlfriend the other day.. shes actually.. pretty good looking. Compared to jodi shes hot.. lol. -jodi could probably read this :|-
But ya ben, shes pretty cool, i like her. Really shy around me tho. Probably doesnt really like me.. haha.... so ya...
But ya.. Going to go see 13 going on 30 with crystal tonight, babis might come but hes got an exam on saturday morning. I work saturday :( It sucks, cause it would have been nice to do something with babis :( I miss him!!
Me and crystal at school, i think we say the word miss too much.. "I miss..." "Well i miss..."
Its like a war i tell ya... haha
well, ya, im gonna get going and just relax for a while. Write more later :P
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